Thru The Pain, Enough Game, Here Is Me... THEN!

about time i open up, right?

2009-08-01T07:00:00.000-07:00

hear me.

i dont grow up in the hood. but i've seen enough and i go thru more than any average person does. so bring in the pain. lets see what kind of torture i can neva go thru. shit man. this is where i come from and this right here, is my religion.

it's all about the hustle and the gamble. pure shit!

fo shiz man. from where i came from, can nobody tell me how i run things or who should i not be with. it pisses me off when you want to find out everything about me because that my dear, is NOT how i roll. u wouldnt find me anywhere unless i come to u. and when i do, appreciate that cus i dun make frens. i make fans!

m so freakin sober as i jot all these. doesnt mean im high all the time too. i know who's reading this. haters and fans. u think u know me but u have no idea.

oh btw, dig this jam right here then u hear my own.

"If I'm wrong oh I dont want to be right
I kissed your sister last night
It aint my fault
I guess your sister's my type"

so here's me.

"it's so wrong and i dun care when it's right
i fcked yr boyfren last night
it aint my fault
cus damn yr man is too tight"

LOL. im crazy right? love this jam man its been in my head since!!!!

.peace.

to my fiancee to be....AGAIN

2009-06-20T08:18:00.000-07:00

sorry, i dont mean it! HAHAHA!

seriously, gimme a break. have u talked to whoever you're supposed to? this whole arrangement is too much now. make them understand! :(

to my fiancee to be

2009-06-20T08:17:00.001-07:00

i miss you!

xx

this is to you!

2009-06-20T08:07:00.000-07:00

i know not much are following my blog but somehow some of my loved ones do so here a shoutout to all the lovers out there. I AM IN KUCHING MOFOSSSSS!! lol. (to all u who dont know me by now, mofo is like the general thing i would say anyhow anyhow. ps: i dont want you guys now to start judging me.

yup im here. it's been 3 days now. OMG, only 3 days??? why m saying tht is because daddy done frustrate me to the highest degree! and when he does, mannnn! things are NOT the way i expected it to be oo.

jenn has been kind enuff to let me crash @ her place. m glad tho i dun have to stay where m supposed to. dad's house is something else man. will update y'all personally as we meet but for now, u know how it is. alcoholic revealed!! hehehe

mommy, dun think i DONT miss u! i DO! and which is why m thinkin of coming back there soon and hug u in public no matter who other is watching. i know i've misbehaved anyhow but all i want u to know is that, mom, i can take care of my own being, u understand? i miss you oo. i really do!

my eyes are pretty tired already so by the time im done with whateva it is, will keep you guys updated with every every! sorry my language is a bit off for now but u don sabi now.

PS: tht guy eh, imma deal with him when i see him now. OMG he pisses me off to the highest degree.

*hugs*

something off facebook.

2009-05-01T10:56:00.000-07:00

D : Sukar mempercayai orang lain.
I : Selalu tersenyum dan membuat orang lain tersenyum.
A : Anda menjadi sangat pendiam apabila anda sedang memikirkan sesuatu.
N : Anda suka bekerja, tetapi selalu mahukan kerehatan.
A : Anda menjadi sangat pendiam apabila anda sedang memikirkan sesuatu.

B : Anda sentiasa berwaspada apabila mengenali kenalan baru.
E : Anda seorang yang menarik.
N : Anda suka bekerja, tetapi selalu mahukan kerehatan.
J : Kuat cemburu.
A : Anda menjadi sangat pendiam apabila anda sedang memikirkan sesuatu.
M : Kejayaan mudah datang kepada anda.
I : Selalu tersenyum dan membuat orang lain tersenyum.
N : Anda suka bekerja, tetapi selalu mahukan kerehatan.

the "anda suka bekerja tetapi selalu mahukan kerehatan" part comes out once too often!! LOL. but this is true tho. i mean the whole rahsia thingy. heehhehee

crushinggggg!!!

2009-04-25T11:13:00.001-07:00

what is it about him? damn it! im falling for his mysterious-ness. LOL!

twas fun while it lasted

2009-04-25T10:48:00.000-07:00

if this is facebook, imma tag someone but eish. what a waste of time. after all, i am over him.....no? hehehe.

and yessss, here's the words to the track. got it off http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/ciara/mylove.html :)

I ride like a soldier
Put nothing before ya
Anything you ask
I'll be right there to do it
But if I react you tell me to relax
Too late to take it back
Cause boy you put me through it

This circular motion is all we do
I'm so sick of going back and forth with you
You should have been happy to have me
You said you wanted to have some kids build a family
(Now I)
Wish it wasn't true
It's killing me to do
What I gotta do
The problem here is you
Ain't nobody new not even my crew
Could take the place of you
The problem here is you

Cause if you only knew what I felt for you
You would have held on tighter
Fought a little harder
Been a little smarter and now you're gonna miss my love
And one day soon you'll see
You'll reach out for me
Boy you had a keeper
Didn't know how to treat her
Should have felt a little deeper and now you're gonna miss my love

Kick it with ya friends (go)
Go out with other chicks (go)
Be all up in the mix (go)
You got the right to do it
You wanna be a pimp
Be treated like a prince
Go 'head and click the switch
Cause now you got ya crown back

My hugs
My kisses
You know you're gonna miss it
And while you're tripping on the love we could have had
I'm moving on
I got to (and)
Ain't no looking back

Cause if you only knew what I felt for you
You would have held on tighter
Fought a little harder
Been a little smarter and now you're gonna miss my love
And one day soon you'll see
You'll reach out for me
Boy you had a keeper
Didn't know how to treat her
Should have felt a little deeper and now you're gonna miss my love
Boy you had a keeper, didn't know how to treat her
Should have felt a little deeper and now you're gonna miss my love

See boy
You had a keeper
But you didn't know
How to treat her

to whom it may concern:
cant help to relate this too most of what we had but twas fun while it lasted. and when it's done, cant help evaluating whether or not twas worth it. know u'll be great by her side. :)

all ICE on me!!

2009-04-25T10:31:00.001-07:00

i havent been keeping track on how many days it hasnt rained here but damn it's been long since. damn man! the HEAT! imagine what'll be like in the desert! or is it just miri?

was in senadin this afternoon to pick up Nash, Atako and Peace. thought of going over to the drag race thingy in lutong. (PS: i was expecting cars!! GRRRRR) omg! ceridak! i reach there and i see bikes. so damn freakin disappointed. :( :( anyway, dun really mind tho.

but eish. when i drop them back home, if it wasnt for peace who noticed the open burning, i wouldnt have realise it was tht BAD! one in senadin itself, and as i was coming from senadin, another 2 on the way. fellow mirians, dont we realise the heat, the dryness and the ceridakness of sweating like a pig? and why some people still continue the burning? FFS, pleaseeeeee be bit more considerate la. we need tht fresh air when we wake up in the morning baaaa. not smoky smoky, hazy hazy and so damn freakin memedihkan mata type of air. :(

but anyway, kinda remind me of elementary school tho. back in primary 5, (gosh tht was in 1998), when open burning was really bad at the sarawak-indonesia border. tht time, heh! even to drive u cant see jack! and the smell was.... ugh!! so the ministry of education kinda gave us A WEEK "haze" break!! LOL!! i was sent to the longhouse @ tht time tho. grrrr!! :P

btw, i notice m talking pointlessly now. hehe. i excited baaa. want to see what my 1st post gon look like. :P but apa gunanya i make blog when i keep deleting them after 3 posts. hopefully this one would last la.

ps: pardon the "laaa"s and the "baaaa"s. just feel like being true iban all of the sudden.